Human cruelty towards fellow man doesn’t surprise me anymore

Is it bad that nothing surprises me anymore?
I mean, seriously, every time I hear of rape, or murder or theft, I don’t really feel anything about it. Sure, it’s sad, but then I get caught up in what I have to do today and it all slips away. The Trayvon Martin case? The Connecticut school shooting? I wasn’t angry or sad, or shocked. I just took at face value. Because guess what?
Human cruelty toward fellow man doesn’t surprise me anymore.
I’m immune to it. Sure, it’s horrible that 26 people died, that a guy was acquitted of a crime he obviously committed, but what can we do? Do we demand that those 26 people are brought back to life? Do we demand a second trial for George Zimmerman? What do we do? We just vow never to repeat the same mistakes, yet we do. We just sit back and debate gun violence and the race problem in America but we never get anywhere. Why not? Because we also have obligations, and we give shopping for school supplies a bigger priority over solving racism and teaching children to respect guns. I get it, everyday life is solved immediately, and unlike with national issues, they have a solution. We humans have this annoying thing where instant gratifications look more appealing to us than working steadily towards a solution. That is why the Internet is such a huge success. That is why malls have grown to be so important.
And that is also why nothing surprises me anymore. Guns and hate offer a release. They provide a physical output for emotions. Human kindness takes a while to get a hold of, and who knows if another person will become kind to you as well? It’s easier to kill and get their land and their power, it’s easier to take your anger out on someone because they are luckier than you. Human cruelty is simply easier. You don’t need to control it, as your anger is a fuel for murder, theft and backstabbing. It brings that instant high that you get when you get something off your chest. Why control your anger when you don’t know the outcome or that outcome is coming slowly?
We all have this problem, and it doesn’t seem like much until we have headlines reading “Boy in Florida killed in fight” or “20 children and 6 adults dead in Sandy Hook”.
Before I close off this post, I would just like to say that while I’m not surprised by human cruelty, doesn’t mean that I think it’s okay, but I also think that this problem will not be solved just by talking about it.
Having said that, goodbye and goodnight


Just an update

WELL HELLO THERE!!! How’s life after two weeks of aimless stalking? I’m great, thank you. And yet, am I? Of course I am! I’m peppy, I’m happy and oh yeah…..I’m going off on a tangent (however the fuck you spell that).
Well, well, well, I’m back, after yes, two goddamn weeks and a day (THE HORROR!!!) of not writing. Stupid, stupid, stupid, I know. I was busy with Chinese, Chemistry, English, you know, the works. So after two weeks of possible writing topics for my wonderful fans (awww love you too, fan of books!!), I completely forgot all of them, which is so typical for me but whatever.
So for English class, we have to read this book called Of mice and men and I honest to god hate it. The sad thing is though, we have to write about the characters and do character charts and all of that crap and we can’t discuss it like we did last year with the entire class weighing in. This year, it’s all Google Chrome computers and writing meaningless essays….and my English teacher cracking cynical jokes that get boring really fast. But hey, freedom of choice over here.
I’m not really a big fan of any of my classes anymore, since it’s two months into school and I’m used to everyone by now. It happens a lot with me, you know just getting so super excited and then…..nope.
Well, I have to do homework, so until Sunday!

September 11

Twelve years ago, the twin towers in New York crashed and took with them thousands of innocent civilians. 
This day is for rememberance and so this special post is for the armed troops and fire fighters and police officers who uphold the law and fight for our freedom.
I just wanted to thank everyone who gave up their lives for our national saftey and security. Have a nice day and night everyone.

Awesome things that Teachers do

Well, I can’t be in denial any longer. School is officially in session and learning is on its way again, with full force. There’s no way to stop it and I got lucky with my teachers this year. I have funny, intelligent and actually helpful teachers this year. Definitely wasn’t expecting that. I even relate to some of them so either they’re young or I’m getting old. So in honor of this school year and my awesome teachers, here’s the list of how awesome teachers teach their students:
1. When teachers provide a reason for giving you specific assignments/instructions.
This one is big. I never respect those teachers who never provide a reasoning for what they tell us to do. My English and Chemistry teachers tell us never to copy notes word for word because we won’t remember the information if we simply wrote them how they did. And they’re right (amazingly)! They explained it in brain chemistry terms, so they get extra points for that. I’m really into psychology, so hearing an English teacher talk about brain chemistry is awesome beyond belief. My Chemistry teacher makes us do homework but doesn’t grade it, since apparently that’s how they do it in college. But instead of just saying, “Because I don’t feel like it”, she told us her reasoning and that really made me respect her so much more. Respecting…a teacher…? Huh. That’s fairly recent. I mean, sure, I respected my teachers in the past, but it was more out of fear than it was genuine respect. but once I hit high school, it was like BAM! Teachers…..were….people……
2.When teachers don’t get impatient with the endless questions.
This one is also big, because I’ve had teachers in the past where if I couldn’t get the material and I really did need their help, they just wrote me off and went to do something else. I’m not joking. It happened more times than I care to count. It was also annoying, but it was mostly a true WTF moment. A teacher is there to freakin’ teach and this year it’s all like, “How can I help you?” It’s kind of disturbing but in a good way since I’m a curious person and I really want to know things. They never look tired which makes me feel like they’re some kind of alien species but again, apparently teachers are human beings too.
3.When teachers teach you life lessons.
Usually, a teacher just teaches you what’s only outlined in the syllabus. A+B=C. That crap. This year, it’s all like “You guys are going into the real world” and “Pain matures you” and “Don’t drink and drive” and “We have freedom even though our media is controlled by five corporations and women get raped and blamed for it too and men are being told to ‘man up’ and oh yeah! universal healthcare is evil.Remember that children. Remember that. We have freedom of speech and of religion (but not Muslims or Jews). We have freedom. We are unique in our freedom.” We get constant lectures on how a specific technique is helping us prepare for the real world and how honestly, this information is helping us analyze a statistic or a book or perform logically. I like it. I mean, why the hell are we learning the information except to learn how to use it and analyze it? Some things make some sense now. But no, not everything. I still have hormones after all 🙂

Just going to the movies….

I miss girl talk. You know, the kind of talk you see in the movies, with all the girls at their coffee houses and all of that crap, just talking about boys, funny instances, boys, shoes, the past, boys, love, boys and boys boys boys!!!!! Ah…..glad I got THAT out of my chest. Just don’t quote me on it….pretty please? 

Seriously, I haven’t talked to a girl who wanted to be silly in a long time. It’s really nice to have that sometimes. No pressures of “does this make me sound stupid?” or “is this opinion properly supported?”. I don’t have to care. I don’t get a lot of girly talk out of my system. I’m talking to some girls who act silly and unrestrained and I feel so dang liberated, so that feels nice. But I don’t get that often. People say that “girly girls” are horrible and vapid and all crappy and typical, but I disagree. “Girly girls” are just girls who don’t give a FUCK.

Anyway, my friend and I went to see Percy Jackson and the Sea of Monsters today, and it was good, but I’m not going to get into it right now. We got popcorn and MMs, and Twizzlers, but naturally, we barely ate any of the popcorn, ate all of the Twizzlers (even though both of us have braces) and chewed half the MMs, just basically behaved like two drunken teens at a party filled with hot college guys. The movie was great, we had a load of fun. Haha. So after the movie, we went to the mall and laughed about the first Percy Jackson film, talked about the series and laughed and hugged. People must have thought we were lesbians, with the looks we were getting. Haters gonna hate. At one point, we freaked this little girl out because we saw a TV that was filming us, and we, ummmm, screamed and jumped in front of it. I still feel bad for any kind of trauma we must have caused her 😦 I’m sorry……

We also just talked about makeup and glamour and crushes (she made fun of me because I still like the guy I liked last year…) and we talked about her best guy friend and we just talked about him and her insecurities and stuff like that. At the food court, we discussed the guy and I flayed her out about that little situation. Well, not quite “flayed”, but the topic got so intense that some people started to wonder whether we were high or not. Oh and: guys were checking us out. That’s right people. I like that. 

We went to Bass Pro Shop and started the shooting game they had on one of those computer thingies and we looked like morons and we laughed so much :’). We then made a wish at the bridge/pond/wishing well thingy. None of this is in chronological order. The movie came first, that’s all. We laughed and talked about nothing of national importance, or religion or history. we did talk about our futures and what we wanted. Mostly, it was light hearted conversation. I love my best friend :’) She’s always going to have my back :’)

Some of my other friends are great: they are pretty fulfilling in the sense that I’m laughing and not thinking about death and we can do all of the making fun of our dance teacher….but this friendship is different. I don’t see her everyday and we still hang out and talk. I doubt that I would be doing the same thing with my other friends. The test of an amazing friendship: you talk more often than you see each other face to face. Check and Check 🙂 This day was so much fun that I put it into my happy year jar 🙂 I have a philosophy about this, but I want to watch the White Queen so bye 🙂